Supernatural Finale

[gothic_elvis]

I've had a bit of time to calm down, though I think I need more. Way more but at least I'm not uncontrollably sobbing anymore. I managed to stifle it to small cries every so often. I at least needed to get to this stage because I knew this was going to be rather long and I knew I couldn't type it through a shield of tears and snot.

I...just...I really have no words. This is not going to be a regular review. Because I know many - like myself - are REALLY upset, this is more going to be an optimistic lets-look-at-the-good-things and run with them post.

I just have to thank my dad too -which I already did - for being there with me. If it weren't for him I'd still be a sobbing, bawling mess on the floor. He doesn't understand me being so emotional and was a little stand-offish at first but then he came and hugged me and we worked out some theories and he said some things that, ultimately, will make me feel better when I can think a little straighter. Right now though my brain is just kind of...mush. I really can't feel anything or think anything other than sadness and how fucking hard this summer is going to be to get through now.

And now, for your consideration, the Supernatural finale review-ish post.




First I just want to point out right here and now I still fucking LOVE show. Love it. To bits. This doesn't change anything. Am I a little pissed and upset? Yes, I am, but I know - like everything else - I will get over it. It will be alright. There's a sixth season, just breathe everyone. That's what I'm trying to do right now.

Like I said, this is not going to be your average review so I'm not going to be starting with the key points or elements I liked, I'm going to start with the ending. {I'll get to those other things later or just weave them in as I go; probably the latter}. Because that's probably all most of us care about right now.

So...wow. That's all I can say. I cried a little at a few other parts but the last twenty or so minutes just had me so hard.

I wasn't expecting...well, any of that, to be honest. I'm still not entirely sure what I was expecting but it definitely wasn't that.

All throughout the episode - after all those looks at Chuck and his writings of the impala - I had the feeling that the Impala was going to get blown up or smushed to smithereens or some other horrible catastrophe. That's what it seemed to be heading too; but indeed it was quite the opposite. It saved them. The Impala saved the world. I rather like that, actually.

I kind of wish we would have had a chance to see Michael!Dean but, in all honesty, you won't see me crying too hard over it. Lucifer!Sam was hard enough.

Dean driving into the battlefield...God that was amazing. [Yes I laughed at first because of the song but then, yeah. :/]

I will say right here and now that I was shocked and did gasp/cry a little when Castiel was blown up. [That was kind of tight; how quick and easy it was for him] I hate the character more than anything but, for once, I was thinking of the Castiel fans and how sad that has to be. He didn't even die with a speck of grace or dignity he just...poof. Gone.

And then Bobby...at first I was freaking out because he kept fucking shooting at him and I wanted to be all "THATS STILL SAM!" and I'm sure those were Dean's thoughts too. When he shot him in the heart region, my stomach jolted because I knew if Lucifer left him he would die.

So then he kills Bobby. Dean's "NO!" was just...-sigh-

This is the part I started sobbing at; just fucking bawling. I hate seeing the boys hit each other but that was just mutilation, what L!S did to Dean. I mean, just wow. I was just sobbing and then it escalated - if possible - when Dean said "I'm here. I'm not leaving you, Sam." or something to that extent. Cue fucking MASSIVE tears.

I knew when they kept showing the Impala that something had to happen with major significance involving it, and I was right. But I had no idea it would happen like that.

The light in L!S's eyes was just...perfect. That the Impala was what snapped him out of it.

And then that...that montage of clips. All five seasons rolled into one thirty second wheel of film. Cue me losing it again - or rather, still, as at this point I just couldnt stop sobbing.

The fact they ended it with a hug? And that hug? That is what made me start choking on my own tears. If I hadn't lost it before, I did then. And Sam just staring at Dean and telling him it would be okay, he's got him. Oh God. Just rethinking all these things is making me tear up again. I may need a minute....

When Sam started edging near the hole I was rocking back and forth on the couch - literally just...rocking. I could not stop. I was almost thankful for Michael!Adam there for a second - hoping he wouldnt let Sam jump in which was then that I realized that that was the only way.

So when L!S fell back and took M!A with him? My jaw dropped so wide [same as it did when both Bobby and Castiel were killed] it popped.

That was the last thing I was expecting. Then cue the hole closing and Dean sitting there, completely battered and alone by the Impala.

Oh God, Dean...He looked so terrible. Whomever did that make-up did a WONDERFUL job, btw. :( And then -ping- CASTIEL! I think this is the first time EVER i've been so completely relieved to see him. I kept looking around for Sam, hoping he'd bring him back too.

I was so happy and actually smiling - while still crying - when he brought Bobby back to life.

It's just...Dean. He has nothing now. Nothing. And that point in the Impala when he said so made me scared for a moment that he would try to off himself. And later when that's what Chuck said - that all he could think about was getting Sam or killing himself - I knew. I knew what was going to happen.

God I was so fucking pissed, I'll fully admit. I was kind of muderous. I was thinking earlier "If Dean goes to Lisa I will..." and I couldn't even finish the sentence.

And where does he go?

To Lisa.

-cue me sighing epically/whilst still crying-

Her asking what's wrong after he's been sobbing onto her shoulder? Yeah, want to slap her. He just lost fucking everything. Bitch. No, I dont like her. And this just further justifies that dislike. And if Ben ends up being Dean's kid I will beat a wall to a pulp

Now....the camera rolling back, fading away...and here's where I was seriously - just for one split of a split of a second - thinking that if they ended it this way...I may not come back. I may not watch season six. But that thought quickly passed though and is now completely gone.

The light flickering. I knew that was a cue and as soon as the camera panned down I knew whose hair that was and I gasped so loud.

And it was Sam. Thank the fucking Lord it was Sam. [If they hadn't shown him, yeah....]

His expression though. That's what worries me. And it's knowing Sam like I do that tells me EXACTLY what I know is going to happen - and I'm sure everyone else does too.

He's not going to go to Dean. Hes going to let him live a happy life with Lisa - or so he thinks because of course we know it's not going to happen like that.

Sam's expression just made me D: because I knew in that second he was just going to go off and leave Dean to think him dead.

Now my thoughts are all a blur so I'm just going to try to get this all out coherently enough. Beyond this point all my thoughts are pretty jumbled and I'm going to skip around a lot just to get out what I've been thinking/feeling. If you can't make sense of it, I'm sorry. :p

At first I was so happy to see Sam because YAY SAM'S BACK YAAAAY HAPPY ENDING! but, no, of course it can't happen like that.

But now this just brings us to the point; How? How the hell did Sam get out? And this also brings me back to my dad whom I want to thank for the support and hugs and telling me it'll be all resolved next season. He also told me that Sam should just move down the street and Dean can live with Lisa and they can just go out hunting every weekend and actually have a house and settle down. I glared at him so fucking hard. No. Just...fucking NO! For so many reasons

My first thought was because of my dad who said that it was Michael. Michael isn't going to just stay in hell, right? I mean, supposedly he's one big powerful dude so obviously he'd be able to get himself out of his brother's basement but the fact that he would bring Sam back up with him is like o.0 Why? What is his reasoning for doing so? Last we saw he was all pissed off at them for going about the plan wrong.

Then my thought was God. That God pulled Sam out because he knows Sam doesn't deserve it and he wasn't going to just let him rot down there. Theory two is because he wants Sam to have his happy ending with Dean too [like how Dean was saying in the Impala what does he get out of this.] Divine intervention, pretty much. Like God wanted to see just how far it would go and only intervene when the time came. And, I mean, Lucifer and Michael are his sons and Michael is still an angel - he's not going to just let him rot down there either.

The whole thing is confusing though because of the light; a light flicking out usually means an angel. So, it very well could have been Michael/God but then I also thought...Castiel. Why not? I mean he's brought back now and supposedly more powerful - why couldn't he raise him just like he raised Dean? That would also explain why he was brought back in front of Dean.

It's just really confusing and I can't wait to see the actual reason in season six. It's probably what I'm most curious about. I mean, WHO THE HELL DID IT?!

Another faarrrr out theory I had was that all that demon blood Sam had to drink would have obviously tainted him beyond human and more demon that - whenever pulled him out did so they had to remove that blood and maybe insert their own? I'm stil just guessing at it being an angel which would therefore mean he has angel blood in him. Would that make him an angel? What if he's an archangel now? I dunno; thats just one of my further out theories.

My dad is the one who brought this up to me because of my absolute hatred of the ending and Dean going to Lisa. He said it like this; that men usually only have their word and that's it and it's actually a GOOD thing Dean went to Lisa. He made a promise - sort of - to Sam that he wouldn't go after him or try to kill himself but go have a happier life with Lisa. So, he went to her. He kept that promise which was honoring Sam. He could have gone all batshit like before and tried to make a deal/kill himself or some other crazy stunt that would have made things worse but no. He honors Sam's 'death' by keeping his promise and going to Lisa. It is only my dad saying that that makes me less unhappy about that. Though I'm still pretty sad about it.
He better not stay with Lisa though. I will be so fucking pissed if they try to throw her in as a 'regular' on the show next season. Fucking pissed pissed pissseeddd.

Anyways, skipping back to the beginning now when Sam says yes to Lucifer [I still gasped and flipped out - even though it was pretty inevitable. haha] and Dean goes to L!S and lifts him up; it just seemed so easy. I was like 'There's no way...no...really...can it?" and noooo of course it's not Sam. It can never be that easy. :|

Bobby just giving up...Castiel too...ugh. Dean won't give up till he gets Sam back; they should know that.

I loved that Chuck was in it though; I love his character. And I did like the whole added things with the Impala. Thought that was pretty neat.

And now I'll talk about what I think got to me most. Those clips of Sam and Dean they showed - I think they showed it several times - but the one of them sitting on the car, staring at the stars? That's when I actually started crying. I remember seeing or wanting to see some kind of scene like that...just the boys sitting there, sitting quietly and staring at the sky. It was either in a fic or a dream...maybe it was a dream. I dunno, but it was just something I wanted; I dunno why. But the fact then that it happened, yeah, that was pretty surreal. I loved those clips thought. It was so fucking beautiful. That and that clip montage when Sam is getting himself back just broke my heart and made me so happy at the same time. [I still wanted a hug this episode, actually, but obviously I didn't see...well, what happened, coming. I swear to God though we better get one BIG HUGE motherfucking hug in season six when they're reunited.]

So, Season Six. How will it start? When will it start?

So then what Jared apparently said comes in to play - supposedly at a Con Jared said the boys are going to be separated for a very long time. And, also with them saying Dean's not going to see Bobby for a very long while, this just kind of fits into play with a time jump. [I dunno if you saw it or not but there was a site a few weeks ago or so that said some major drama show is going to have a big time jump]. And, folks, I think it's ours.

And it's going to be devastating. I don't want a fucking time jump, that's like missing out on some of their lives!

But this is what I can see happening - unfortunately - Sam, obviously isn't going to go to Dean because he wants him to be happy and is going to go off on his own and do his own thing. Dean will stay with Lisa [and hopefully not get too overly attached to her so he can live with Sam again later] and months, maybe years will pass. I'm guessing maybe around 2 years. Sam will come back, be curious as to how Dean's doing and, some way or another, Sam will get caught and Dean will just stare at him and just...stare. Then that's when I'm hoping for a big hug though knowing show we'll probably get a punch and no hug. Because we all know Dean's not going to be happy that Sam just left without him and didn't even try to get to him again.

[Gaaaah just thinking of Sam leaving Dean there with Lisa and thinking he's dead is making me cry again. :/]

After that...I have no idea. The show better go the route where they just pick up and leave together but knowing Show, they won't. Dean will be 'in love' with Lisa or whatever and just adore little Ben and be unable to leave him so then Dean will be conflicted but ultimately - at least I pray to God so - he will choose Sam and they will go their own little way and do MOTW things.

I don't know how it's going to play out; this is just all speculation. One thing I know for SURE though is Sam is not going to tell Dean he's alive and another thing I'm PRETTY SURE on is the time jump. Only unclear thing is how big of one itd be. [I'm still hoping for a few months, like three or four as when Dean was in hell, but again, knowing show, it'll be a few years.]

I just...gaaaaaaaaaaaaah It's all fucking screwed to hell. And now we have to wait till September or maybe fucking Jaunuary. If those midseason rumors are true I will send the CW ten thousand fucking nasty letters; no joke.

I just don't have any idea where they're going to go with this now or how they're going to get Lisa out of the picture. I mean yeah it's not like I want her to die or anything but I do not like her. She just needs to GTFO. But I'm counting on Dean's utter love and co-dependence for Sam that he will live Lisa given a choice for her or Sam and then they will be on their merry way.

I dunno...I just...I dunno. My brain is rattling so much right now I can't think straight and I got a huge, terrible fucking headache. This is all making me think too much. :p

A few things I got an issue with:

WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO CHUCK!? WHY DID HE JUST GO POOF? IS HE GOD? WTF?! [Plot twist; Castiel actually IS God. lol Who knows.]

I WANT DEAN'S AMULET BACK! [Actually, that's my dream S6 episode. Renuited with a hug and a buttload of tears and Sam gives the amulet back to Dean. Oohhhhhh my heart just thinking about it. -thump thump-

What happened to Raphael? Is he still in that little fiery angle circle thingy? They just completely overlooked him. :p



This episode literally broke me Any other times I've said that I've been wrong. This episode was it. It was the fucking mothershit. Like none other. I haven't cried so hard at a tv show since last years American Idol finale [and that was a reality show so it doesn't count.] My heart just feels torn and squeezed and stretched to the limit. I do know if they hadn't shown Sam at the end there [ just a weeeeeeeeeeeee bit of hope ] I would be still bawling right now. Just think if that had been the last episode EVER and no season six. I uh...yeah. I dont even want to think about it.

I could probably go on and on and on and on about everything but I won't. I'm so tired and just feel completely worn out.

One things for sure - when I buy the DVD I know I won't be able to watch that episode. At least, not a lot. Maybe when I first buy it but yeah...it's gonna be up there with AHBL that I will fucking sob every time I see it. God, that was just such a heartbreaking finale. It's all now just starting to sink in.

The finale's over; it's done with. Gone. Behind us now. So it's on now to S6! Which I am still very excited for - if any of you were doubting me, that is. I still love show to death and want it to keep going. I'm pissed off at the turn it took but I guess I can't see it have going any other way now that I think about it. [My dad said it was kind of anticlimatic - he wanted some big fight scene - but I just said "What the hell else do you want?" and I'm pretty sure that they would have gone the fight scene direction if they had more funds. :p]

GOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I'M STILL SO BROKEN! I knew I was going to be sad but not THIS fucking sad. Its all replaying through my head and I can feel the tears coming back.

Even though we didn't get an actual hug at least we got to see a clip of one...and it was the last one - the one that made Sam come back to himself.

And that scene of them on the Impala with the stars will ALWAYS be one of my favorites. Always. <3

God I'm exhausted. I'm just going to stop now.

I bid you adieu and goodnight. I will try to get some sleep but I doubt I will.

Dean: I love you and you better fucking choose your brother over Lisa when he comes for you/when you see him. Do not make the wrong choice. And when he does, know Sam still loves you and that's why he did what he did. He didn't come to you because he wants you to be happy - that's all he's ever wanted. I hope you understand that.

Sam: I already know you're not going to go to Dean but please pleeaassee don't think that this is what Dean really wants. You should be smarter than that, kid. You should know right damn well that all Dean really wants is to be with you. Hell he didn't even actually promise you; it was more just taken for granted. When you go get him, you get him. His attachment to Lisa is not real - its you he really wants and you know it. He knows it. But you left him, Sam, so now you gotta get him back. He's yours and you're his. Thats how it's always been and how it always will be. So you go get that little son of a bitch when its time - take whats yours and drive off in the Impala into the sunset. That's what you both really want, anyway. <3

Kripke: I have no words for you. None. In fact, I don't want to speak to you ever or ever see you ever again. Ever.

I'll be waiting in my bedroom for the hate sex.

BOYS I WISH YOU COULD READ THIS! :p

As much as I ranted and raved this was an EPIC episode. Terribly heartbreaking and/or frustrating it was EPIC there is NO getting around that. Epically hearbreaking. Gaaah that is the story of Sam&Dean, for sure.

God there I go rambling again. Shutting up now. For good.


[Just a warning/enticement that I may make a part two tomorrow just to talk more about the episode and throw in anymore theories or things I forgot about. Lord knows I probably forgot a shit ton.]


LONG LIVE SUPERNATURAL AND SEASON SIX FOR THE MOTHER FUCKING WIN!

Edit: Took me an hour and a half to write this. Jesus. :p