you can't handle the truth...no i really can't

[gothic_elvis]

So, wow, uhm.....Well.

This ep went a little differently than planed/expected, but, overall, not too disappointed I guess. Just a little O_o.

Make that a lot 0_o.

Hmm.



LOVED THE EP, DIDN'T LIKE IT? *WAVES BYE*




Okay I felt so bad for that girl at the beginning. :( After that dude told her she's a three compared to the other waitress I was like ;_; EMPATHY. I SHOWED A LOT OF IT THIS EPISODE.

Dean being so frightened and wary of Sam was total D: I mean, he didn't even want to be in the same ROOM as him; that's fucking terrible.

That exchange they had talking to that girl's sister was a little odd. It was like he was trying to prove to Dean that his methods worked or something. IDEK.

When Sam came back and looked all confused that Dean didn't want to come with him, I was a little :( for him then because it seemed - for a moment - that he was a bit sad about it. But now we know he can't feel anything so obviously he was fine.

Ugh. I never want to go to the dentist again after that. Ever.

The good or bad drilling? lmaaaooooo

I LOLed at that part in the bar with the chick that was totally pushing her boobs out and how he comes back slowly to look. xDDD Oh Deaaaaaaaaaaaaaan<3 I love it when he does total Dean stuff like that again.

OMG BOBBY THAT PEDICURE THING AND THEN SAYING DEAN WAS HIS FAVE AND DEAN'S LITTLE SMILE. And then saying Sam's the better hunter - at least of late. :|


You guys, that call with Lisa; I was really fucking pissed at first and am like WE'RE LOSING PRECIOUS S&D TIME, GET ON IT PEOPLE.

And theeeeeeeeeeeeen the Wincesty moment. I am only paraphrasing because I can't remember it exactly

The whole "You two have the most unhealthy tangled up relationship." And "Yeah I love my sister but I wouldn't bring her back to life." And Dean then confirming and admitting that, yes, they have issues.

THE WINCEST. IT DOST LIVETH. LISA ~BELIEVES.

I am rather glad they're broken up now. Cya later Lisa or, ya know, not. Preferably not.


Omg that bit with Sam ;_; I was pretty sure halfway through that it didn't work on him and he was lying but when Dean said "Thank you Sammy" in that choked up voice I died a little inside. SO HEARTBREAKING OMFG. That whole scene was...and then Sam's little look coming down the stairs. -_-

I loved that little bit with them both sitting on the bed watching the tapes then Dean, so obviously, getting bored and laying back eating dougnuts [?] and then pizza while Sam just continued watching. Cause I guess when you can't feel anything you don't get bored and sitting watching the same footage for hours is entertainment enough.

I loved Veritas' house. It was pretty spiffy. Ew with all the dead bodies though; wouldn't want those.

WHEN SHE THREW THEM BACK AND THEY FELL TOGETHER ALMOST HOLDING HANDS D'AWWWWWW SO PRECIOUS.

Cue them being tied up. Again. For the fifty millionth time.

WHEN SHE ATE THAT TONGUE I THINK I WAS GOING TO THROW UP A LITTLE. OR RATHER, DID THROW UP A LITTLE.



disgusted!Sherlock being disgusted better shows my disgustment.


The truth from Dean we already figured but saying that he wants to kill him and how he's acting like himself and that he was feeling a bit better when he talked to him. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH SADNESS.

"I'm not a father, I'm a killer." /sobbing

Sam, I could tell he was lying...so could tell.

Dean's face when she says he isn't human and lying ;_; OMG IT'S SO SAD YOU GUYS; SO FUCKING SAD. It's like what he said to him earlier obviously meant nothing and was a lie.

Dean holding the knife to Sam...Sam being literally so afraid that he was going to do something....nawelralwemrlawjerawer whhhhhhhhhhhyyyyyyyyy

FINALLY Sam admits he knows something's wrong with him but doesn't care because he's a better hunter. HE DOESN'T ~FEEL ANYTHING.


And then...that ending. :( I literally had a flashback to Swan Song in that moment and I just started sobbing, I couldn't help it. It was too much and the tears just kept flowing. He just...kept hitting and hitting him, just like Luci!Sam did to him. D: WHY DID THEY HAVE TO END IT LIKE THAT THO. PROBABLY ONE OF THE MOST DEPRESSING ENDINGS IN THE HISTORY OF EVER.

Though I do agree with what qaf_addict_06 said to me on Twitter that Dean was probably only doing it to get him to feel since he'd just said he couldn't feel anything anymore. But still...

AND THEN THAT PROMO. OMFG YOU GUYS, YOU REALLY NEED TO START READING SPOILERS. IVE KNOWN SAM HASN'T HAD A SOUL FOR WEEKS.

Obviously the truth thing doesn't work with Sam because without a soul there's nothing there; no conscious or reasoning for telling the truth because you dont have the notion of truth or what's morally right. You probably just live. At least, that's what it seemed like to me. It wasn't really a cop out; I mean, if we'd found out it wasn't a soul Sam was missing I'd have thought it was but now that we know FOR SURE that's whats wrong, I don't think it is anymore.

If I read ONE MORE person after this ep saying they hate Sam I am going to blow a fucking gasket. It's NOT HIM. He has no fucking soul, you can't expect him to be all happy-go-lucky and give a shit about anything when he's soul-less. I mean, come on. They're comparing it to be non-human [which I still don't get entirely but w/e] so of course Sam's acting a little differently. Hopefully now that Dean understands he won't be so wary anymore and will work with Bobby and Cas to figure out how to get it back.


Thank GOD Dean didn't try to kill him though - because, technically, it is his brother, just missing one key piece.

One thing's for sure: I cannot wait for the scene that Sam gets his soul back. I just want him to fucking smile really really big like he used to. Awww ;_;

I'm sure that's going to be the main plot for the rest of the season though so I'm sure we have a ways yet till that happens. I hope it isn't in the finale though, I'd love the boys to be the semblance of 'normal' again at least for a few eps before the end. It's been nothing but angst since s4 and I'm getting just a liiitttle tired of it.

This ep 8/10

Very, VERY excited for the next episode!

Comments

[mysticwaters.livejournal.com]

If it takes all season for Sam to get his soul back imma be pissed. >:( I want to see a REAL reunion between Sam and Dean and a REAL HEARTFELT MUTHAFUCKING HUG like we saw in Lazarus Rising. Then maybe I'll be satisfied. I just....I just don't want Dean to be sad anymore. ;__; Is that too much to ask? Geez, writers, take away Dean's brother and now Lisa and Ben are gone, just WTF?! Throw the guy a frickin bone!

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

Really. I mean, I'm all for angsty!Dean and shit but he's just been whammied so fucking hard this season already and I'm like "GIVE THE DUDE A BREAK, GODDAMN!" I'm not a fan of Lisa at all but I know Dean did care for her and that break up - along with Sam's state - is not going to put him in a happy mood.
I'm hoping it's mid-season we get the real Sam back - even the ep before the hellatus would be nice; like, the rest of the season after that could be them figuring out why the creatures are acting out. With the REAL Sam&Dean. I just...I need them to be back and together and happy again plz :/

And OMFG YES a REAL MOTHERFUCKING HUG. I want Dean to just tackle him after he gets his soul back and never let go.

[mysticwaters.livejournal.com]

I want Dean to just tackle him after he gets his soul back and never let go.

THIS SO HARD. I will be a happy fangirl...a sobbing mess too, but happy! :')

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

This time when they hug they'll BOTH be breathing hard and holding on too hard. xDD I'm looking forward to it - just hoping they give it to us. After the shit they're putting us [and them] through, they better.

[qaf-addict-06.livejournal.com]

EMPATHY. I SHOWED A LOT OF IT THIS EPISODE.

Same. I think it's why I got so defensive in my recap LOL

Oh Deaaaaaaaaaaaaaan<3 I love it when he does total Dean stuff like that again.

LOL I loved that. I was like, "That's the Dean we all know is in there" LOL <3333

The whole "You two have the most unhealthy tangled up relationship." And "Yeah I love my sister but I wouldn't bring her back to life." And Dean then confirming and admitting that, yes, they have issues.

OMG, my Wincesty heart was going nuts during that conversation LOL

Dean holding the knife to Sam...Sam being literally so afraid that he was going to do something

Killed me. He was SO terrified in that moment. He knew something was wrong with him, but that he was still himself and he just didn't know what to do. ;___;

I literally had a flashback to Swan Song in that moment and I just started sobbing, I couldn't help it. It was too much and the tears just kept flowing.

Oh God. I was sitting here sobbing so hard like I did when I watched Swan Song and I had to put a hand over my mouth because I didn't want my mom to hear me LOL I was still crying like 5 minutes after the credits rolled and the promo aired. I just couldn't stop, just like during Swan Song. It was almost the exact kind of scene.

I still stand by what I said about Dean beating Sam up LOL Yes, it was horrible and it broke my heart, as it always does, but I still believe that he was trying to help him in that moment. Kind of like, "You want to feel something again, feel THIS", you know?

I cannot wait for the scene that Sam gets his soul back. I just want him to fucking smile really really big like he used to. Awww ;_;

I've already thought about that moment in my mind and it makes me tear up just thinking about it.

I still feel really emotional inside for some reason. This episode did a number on me LOL

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

Mmhm, yes, there was just something about this episode that got to me, and I can't place why.

I LOVE IT WHEN HE DOES DEAN STUFF! Probably because we see so little of it now that every moment is a bit of glee.

SAME HERE! MY EYES WERE SO BIG AND I THINK I WAS GRINNING LIKE A LOON. I always love it when people point out how co-dependent and fucked up they are with each other. Which, of course, they already know - just don't care about. haha

I think that was probably one time that Sam actually felt something - fear that Dean was going to do something to him and panic that he would leave him again because now he knows that he's missing something. That part was just ;_;

I know, my God. I didn't cry as hard as Swan Song [I never, NEVER want to experience that kind of pain again; ever.] but I did cry for at least five minutes afterwards, too. It was more of a shocked, wtf cry though - not sobbing my eyes out for eternity. It was just such a role reversal and that shocked and got me to my core, I think that's what did it mostly.

I want a fic of that now - the moment right after Dean does that, Sam comes to and Dean just says something like "Can you feel that, Sammy?" And then he cleans him up and they make out. I just...I want a lot of fic for this episode.

I want a really REALLY happy reunion when he gets his soul back and, honestly? I think us fans deserve it. A lot. We better get a hug, lots of fucking tears and possibly more hugging.

I do too! I don't know, just something about the whole theme of this ep has me reeling. :/

[qaf-addict-06.livejournal.com]

I didn't cry as hard as Swan Song

I didn't either really, but it came pretty damn close LOL During Swan Song I could barely breathe, literally, because I was crying so hard. Tonight wasn't like that, but I was SOBBING LOL But I think it was because of what you said...the shocking part of it. I mean, I knew from spoilers and that promo from a while back, that it was coming, but for some reason I'd forgotten about it and the first punch made me jump LOL I just wasn't expecting it.

And YES, I want that fic, too. A lot. I wish I felt comfortable enough to write in the SPN verse, but I've never been able to.

I think us fans deserve it. A lot. We better get a hug, lots of fucking tears and possibly more hugging.

We totally do after all this, and after that emotionless hug (since we know Sam felt nothing now) in the premiere.

Yeah...I can't shake this weird, emotional feeling right now. I'm sure it'll pass, but sometimes episodes get to me like this, especially when it comes to Sam and Dean.

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

In Swan Song I was inconsolable for hours; I couldn't stop crying or thinking about it or even shaking a little. And then thinking about - even now - that THAT would have been the ending if that were the series ending just...I cant think about that. lol

Unfortunately I remembered it clearly and was just sitting waiting for the punch in that moment. :/ I didn't know it was going to be so bad though. Like Swan Song 2.0 - like, literally beating the shit out of him. But, Sam didn't fight back, so that obviously means something.

Mmhm :/ Sam needs to hug him and actually smile next time - then I'll cry happy tears of love.

I'm the same way - I'm so invested in this show it's ridic.

And, OT, but that girl in your entry who says she's intolerant of Dean this season is ticking me off a little bit. :| What does she have against Dean I say!

[qaf-addict-06.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I was basically the same way after Swan Song. I've never had a reaction to a TV show like that before, and haven't since, and probably never will again, except for maybe the actual SERIES finale (not thinking about that *shudders*). I never want to feel what I felt that night again because it was PHYSICALLY painful LoL

And about that girl...yeah I know. I know a few other people who are being really bitchy toward Dean this season and IDGI. Dean has been going through so much shit this season and it's not going to stop anytime soon. I don't blame him for ANYTHING he's feeling or doing right now. This season is horrible for both of them, they shouldn't be getting hate from anyone, IMO, but I'm not them, and if they want to be that kind of SPN fan, so be it.

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

I had that type of reaction - worse, actually - with a show but I don't feel like saying it lol Oh God, series finale...nope, not thinking about it. La la la la

I don't understand the hate towards any of them, either. They're both taking a real beating this season and it's just terrible that people are bashing them from here to Hell. I can't stand it when people say they're all 'Sam!Girls' or 'Dean!Girls' cause, ya know what? I'm a Sam&Dean!Girl and I care about both of them; I adore them death and seeing either one of them in pain or suffering with a problem really just depresses and pisses me off. Uggghhhh people. :/

[openmoments.livejournal.com]

I really need to catch up with my Supernatural. Like...seriously need to catch up. WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME?!

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

YES, YOU NEED TO CATCH UP. WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOOUUUUUUUU? lol

And, thanks for using that icon to totally distract me from whatever it was I was doing before now. haha

[openmoments.livejournal.com]

SO MUCH IS WRONG WITH ME! HOW DON'T YOU KNOW THIS YET?!

No problem ;) I bet you didn't notice those stolen cookies, didja? =P

[kros-21.livejournal.com]

If I read ONE MORE person after this ep saying they hate Sam I am going to blow a fucking gasket. It's NOT HIM. He has no fucking soul, you can't expect him to be all happy-go-lucky and give a shit about anything when he's soul-less. I mean, come on. They're comparing it to be non-human

AMEN. it's so logical I don't get how people can't get it.
If I got high fever would you blame me for being delirious?!??!?! I mean, COME ON PEOPLE!!!!!!!!

I really hope now they can work on fixing Sam up. :/

[highdreams.livejournal.com]

ZOOOOMG. Downloading the ep now and after reading your review I can't fucking wait for it to finish. I didn't read the spoilers about Sam's soul, but I suspected something like that. OMG OMG. Poor Sammy. And Dean.

[canyon_deye.livejournal.com]

Dentist scene creeped me the fuck out.

And I so agree on people that are hating on Sam. They're pissing me off so much. CAN'T YOU SEE THE GUY HAS PROBLEMS? DDDDDDDD: jfc

I loved that there was FINALLY something real between the brothers even if it was Dean beating the shit out of Sam.