you've torn my heart into pieces. </3

[gothic_elvis]

This is completely a Supernatural review post.


BENEATH THIS CUT IS SPOILERS FOR 5X16 AND ALSO VERY WINCEST-Y VIEWS. BE PREPARED FOR CRYING FLAILING AND ALL AROUND LOVE AND HATRED OF THIS EPISODE. IT WAS AND IS THE BEST OF THE SEASON; IF YOU HATED IT GTFO.

Please be forewarned that I am STILL fucking crying as I write this.




Okay so, I really don't know what to say. I was basicially crying the whole episode with pretty much happy tears and some sad then at the end I was so fucking happy [but still kinda sad] and then THAT had to happen and I had to start sobbing...again. And I'm still crying. GOD SHOW, WHHYYYYY?!?!

-Please note there was A LOT that went down in this episode and I can't remember half of it so I'm just saying what I do; feel free to add your own fave parts! Chances are they were mine too! :D Bolded parts are parts I REALLY liked or scenes that had an impact on me.

This episode was EXTREMELY EXTREMELY TO THE EXTREME Wincest-y. So don't blame me. :p

First off I started getting teary-eyed when Sam got shot and Dean's FACE; omg his fucking face. How many times must he watch his Sammy die?

I love how when Dean dies and goes to heaven he gets the Impala.

This scene. I did not know this scene would be in this episode. This is where it started. When Dean and little Sammy started setting off firecrackers and fireworks in the field I started crying and crying; Dean was actually smiling, like really smiling and when Sam hugged Dean I kinda whimpered a bit and cried harder. Show, you break me. You really do.
And Cas talking to Dean though the Impala. Priceless. Sam!Impala, now Cas!Impala...methinks Dean is jealous. Everyone's been in her but him. ;]

LOL at Sam's first date. xDD PEDOPHILIA MUCH SHOW?! HUH?! Omg when she put her hand on his thigh xDDD And Deans face when Sam said it was a happy memory cause it was his first thanksgiving made me D:

SAM YOUR BROTHER IS NOT CRAZY. HE KNOWS WHAT HE'S DOING TALKING TO THAT RADIO.

When Sam said that he could understand Dean going to Heaven [but not himself?] TEARS. DOWN MAH FACE. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE SAMMY OH HOW YOU LOVE YOUR DEAN!

Cas in the t.v.; LMAO. The way it looked to it reminded me of some horror movie of which I did not watch. haha But that was great.

[after this things get a bit muddled so if I jump back and forth between scenes forgive me]

Ommmggg DEAN WUVS HUUUGGSSSS! And Mary. omgmmm GODDAMN SAM LET DEAN HAVE HIS GODDAMN MOMENT ALREADY WITH HIS CRUSTLES PB&J! EVER HEARD OF 'ME' TIME? GUESS NOT.

And then the phone call and Dean getting up saying he loved Mary and hugging her and MORE TEARS. STREAMING DOWN MY FUCKING FACE. OMFG. And Sam was getting all teared up and IT WAS JUST A FUCKING SOBBING FEST AROUND HERE.

I can't remember what happened next but Sam's memory of the house with the golden retreiver and him thinking it was a happy memory insulting Dean because DEAN WASN'T FUCKING THERE. Omg Dean LOOKED SO FUCKING SAD. One of his happier memories was without Dean there. :( No, Sammy, no.

Then the memory when Sam left for Stanford; I started crying even harder again. SAM WAS NOT HAPPY LEAVING YOU DEAN; NOT REALLY. I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU MAKE DEAN MAKE ANYMORE UPSET SAM I WILL HUNT. YOU. DOWN. God Dean really does think everyone is leaving him because it's HIS fault...The way he was all "One of your happiest memories was getting away from me?" or something like that broke me. Oh Dean bb, I LOVE. YOU! /sobs sobs sobs

ZACHARIAH. I HATE YOU. GTFO OF HEAVEN; YOU DON'T BELONG THERE. I do love how the boys were trying to run from him though even after he's all "You can run but you can't run" lmao

Annnndd; AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I literally stood up and whooped and got so happy! Omg. I love Ash. I'm so glad he got into heaven. <333333

His reaction when he learned of Jo and Ellen's death made me sad too. :(

And the special cases part...yes...finally, we're at this point in the show. When Ash is all like there's only one person per heaven then sometimes two for 'special cases' and Dean's all like, "What special cases?" And Ash: "Soul mates." -stares all around-

*ahem* let me bring this to your fucking attention:

SHOW SAID BOYS ARE SOUL MATES. FUCKING. SOUL. MATES.

BEAT THAT NOW YOU OTHER SHIPPERS OF THE PAIRINGS THAT SHALL BE UNNAMED

Omg I squee'ed, yelled clapped and every other thing when he said that. And cried. Don't forget crying.

And then enter PAMEELLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Bitch you shut up about Dean saying yes. Stfu.
Loved her comment about Sam's ass...AGAIN. Someone on this team has a thing for Jared's ass....Sera and Jensen
AND WTF WAS THAT KISS ALL ABOUT?! I think I know; I mean, who DOESN'T want to taste those amazingly insane and obscene lips? Lord knows I do.

Why the guilt trip? WHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?! This next scene killed me too. WHY DOES EVERYONE HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING MEAN TO DEAN?! WHHHYYYY! SAMMY LOVES YOU DEAN; HE REALLY DOES THOUGH IT MAY NOT SEEM LIKE IT SOMETIMES. God the guilt trips people lay on that man. :( Outrageousness. Enter the Z...god I hate him.

At least Sam showed SOME alarm when they started using his big bro as a punching bag. :/

THEN ENTER...JOSSHHUUUAAAAAAAAAAAA! Who's a pretty BA dude if I do say so meself. ;]

I really liked their garden actually, it's nice.

And now for the real kicker; God's not going to help. I didnt think he would but omg the boys looked so devasated. And Sam's face when Joshua said that Dean's losing faith in him. :((((( -sadness- Dean you're such a broken man, we know, Sam knows, God knows....Go have healing buttsex to make it better.

THEN RE-ENTER BODY TIME! WOOOO!

Cas....you cursed. Twice. This episode; you are awesome - sorta. As long as you're not invading Dean's personal space. :p You can tell it's bad if Cas is so beaten down looking and just all Sam emo-y.

THE AAMMMUULLEEET RETURRRRRRRRRRRRNSSSSS YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! Seriously right after he caught it I was chanting PUT IT ON PUT IT ON over and fucking OVER and when he didn't right away I knew something was wrong.

Then; the real heart string tugger and what REALLY set me off:

Dean gives the amulet one last longing? look AND THROWS IT THE FUCK AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sam's face....DDDDDDDDD:.....my face DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD: and Dean's face...well we couldn't see his but I bet it was pretty messed up.

As soon as he let it go my heart literally fell into my stomach and I started sobbing. Not crying, fucking SOBBING MY HEART OUT.

That amulet symbolized so much - at least to me - and he just...threw it away. Just like that. As least he hesitated A LITTLE. Goddamn. I just finished crying over that but now I'm gonna start right back up again. I cannot believe he did that; I was so looking forward to getting it back and then THAT happens.

Jensen being all sneaky and suspcious when he said "yes" to the 'will we see the amulet again?' question at LA con :| -_________-

That amulet was pretty much a metaphor for...well, EVERYTHING about the boys and just so much more then he threw it away. Into the trash. DO NOT FUCKING THROW AWAY YOUR LOVE GODDAMNT DEAN! -clutches flowers to chest and sobs into them-

Sam BETTER have picked it up so they can have some really fucking touching reunion with it at the end in the finale or some shit or I will be PISSED. BEYOND FUCKING PISSED. I WANT THAT AMULET BACK AND IT'S KIND OF SAD HOW MAD I AM THAT IT'S JUST LITERALLY THROWN AWAY LIKE THAT. FUCK YOU KRIPKE; I LOVE YOU, BUT FUCK. YOU!

This episode...-besides that last heart wrenching and stomach gutting scene that makes me want to cry and vomit at the same time - was my favorite of the entire season. yes, even surpassing The End. I literally loved -almost- everything about this episode and I am still in awe, even if depressed. It might even be my favorite of the all five SEASONS. It's just...wow. So much put into one little episode. I didn't want it to end. And yeah with that ending who would.

God I really hoped Sam picked that amulet up because not seeing that around Dean's neck anymore EVER is going to make me depressed and so fucking sad everytime I see him. God this is just upsetting. KRRRIPPPKEEEEE YOU CANT JUST THROW IT AWAY LIKE THAT. YOU CAN'T. WE SHOULD WRITE LETTERS. LOTS OF ANGRY NASTY NASTY LETTERS DEMANDING IT GET PUT BACK WHERE IT BELONGS. ON DEANS SEXY SEXY CHEST! -__________-

I could seriously go on and on about that ALL NIGHT AND DAY so I will shut up now and hope it comes back. Or I will go kill myself.

I am excited for next weeks ep too! It looks really good, but there's no WAY it'll be as good as this one. Unless we get the amulet back. Okay shutting up about that now. :p

But seriously though? This episode >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> life itself.
This episode was so extremely Wincesty; I loved it.

SO, in conclusion, Eric Kripke:

I love you very much and thank you so much for finally admitting that, yes, the boys are meant for each other. And being so openly blatant about it was even better.

But I kind of want to kill you. So watch your back.

Sincerely,
Shailey [A Besotted Fangirl that is in love with Dean's amulet]

hee

PS I want icons/animations STAT

PSS If you read all this you get my undying love....and a I Wuv Hugs shirt.

IF YOU GET SAD LIKE ME; JUST THINK OF THE EPICNESS OF ALL EPICNESS: THE BOYS ARE SOULMATES. IT'S CANON. [Icon right now, y/y?]



Comments

[mysticwaters.livejournal.com]

This ep killed me. For serious. I'm still not really able to give a thoughtful, coherent comment. I am just achy......and numb. :(

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

I know; it killed me too. In so many ways. I love though how I went from such happy tears in the beginning and they slowly started getting sadder then at the end it was full blown bawling. xDD

[pixel (from livejournal.com)]

so....THAT happened.

There is a theory, floating around that Zachariah manipulated the memories a bit to pick THOSE specific ones for Sam in order to manipulate Dean into saying yes. I WILL CLING TO THIS THEORY FOR ALL IT'S WORTH.

SOULMATES. I don't know how I can be this happy and sad at the same time. DAMN YOU KRIPKE!

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

I know. Sad, right?

OMG THAT THEORY. I REALLY REALLY LOVE THAT THEORY. I am sticking to it as well; wow, that really does make sense actually! Thanks for giving me that idea. -just a little less sad...but just a little-

I KNOW I'M SO HAPPY! :D It's pretty much canon now. As if it werent before :p But yeah -squee!-

[blinding-light6.livejournal.com]

This episode was just so fuckin' awesome. I cried and laughed but probably cried a lot. Dean's face in like every single fuckin' scene. :'( I was expecting a great big hug from the brothers but nothing. I can't even begin to analyze anything from this episode, it was just awesome period. Whoa, I didn't even notice the amulet is back. Broken Dean makes me so sad. :(

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

I cried so much it's pathetic. :(

WHAT?! YOU DIDN'T NOTICE THE AMULET? THAT'S WHAT EVERYONE IS FREAKIN SOBBING ABOUT RIGHT NOW! As soon as he got it and didn't put on right away I went D: and then he threw it the fuck away. Be back, sobbing again.

[blinding-light6.livejournal.com]

It's ridiculous with the roller coaster of emotions I went through in this episode.

I know it's totally shameful that I hadn't noticed it at first. But now the significance has totally sunk into me. Omg even Sam was all this is not good. On a weird note, was it just me or was that shirt that Sam was wearing in the last scene sort of weird and not him?

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

I know same. xDD

I didn't notice! I'll make sure to check that out when I re-watch. ;] [And hopefully I won't cry as much this time. xD]

[blinding-light6.livejournal.com]

Omg I think I'll be even more emotional during the re-watch knowing everything. This might actually be my favourite from this season.

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

It might even be a close favorite of all time for me, almost beating Mystery Spot. The End is another fave of mine from this season though; that one was awesome.

[blinding-light6.livejournal.com]

I looooved Mystery Spot and The End. I don't think I'd ever be able to pick a favourite of all time. I love Home, When the Levee Breaks and pretty much all of the S2 episodes. Depending on how the season finale goes, it might become my most favourite or least.

[canyon_deye.livejournal.com]

Yeah EXACTLY. I was crying throughout the ep, too. And the ending seemed to be alright but THEN THAT, OMFG WHY. I can't deal with this. And I can't stop fucking crying D:

I can't believe they did that with the amulet. Just, NO. I seriously hope Sam picked it up, because Dean just couldn't have meant it like that. He just couldn't. You're right, it symbolises so fucking much in the show, and it can't be gone for good :(((((( It's where it all started, it's also where it should end!

Soulmates though <3

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

I know! It's like -happy tears happy tears- omfg WTF?!

I am 99.99% sure Sam picked it up to give to him later. And if he didnt; FU KRIPKE AND FU SHOW! I mean it just means so much to all us fans then *plop* right in the trash. But, I read cherie_mortes review and it makes me feel better about it, a bit.

I know, that makes it all better. <3333

[jennybliss.livejournal.com]

Dean throwing the amulet away just about killed me. Sam had better have picked it up. If he didn't I am going to hunt him down and kill him my self!!

[gothic-elvis.livejournal.com]

IKR?! Buuutt I'm pretty sure, by what Jensen was acting like/saying, at the JiB con that Sam picked it up. ;] [He better or I will be PISSSEEDDDDD.]