Update on my mom

[gothic_elvis]

Thank you all so much for your well wishes and hugs. They meant so much to me especially being able to read them while sitting in multiple waiting rooms not even knowing if she was going to be alright.

I was able to finally see and talk with her but  I found out what happened first from a nurse.

She doesn't have her license, she's not even supposed to be driving but she took the car her father gave her and ran it into a semi head first; trying to kill herself. She's told me numerous times she would throw herself in front of a truck, I just didnt know she'd actually ever do it.

When I could talk to her she told me the car started on fire and rolled quite a few times - she should have died.

Her only real injuries are all her teeth are now gone and her jaw is fractured and then some cuts on her arms she did to herself.
 

I asked her if she'd do it again and she said she doesnt have another car. 

I just don't understand why if she loves me so much, she keeps trying to leave me.

Again, I thank you all for your concern, it's helping me get through this right now.

 

Comments

[klutzy-girl.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* I'm so sorry.

[heartsonwings.livejournal.com]

I am so so sorry about this hun :(
It sounds terrible and I'm so sorry you have to go through it

You have to remember that your mom loves you, no matter what. If she is suicidal then loving you has got nothing to do with it, hun, she needs help. Of course she loves you. You and your mom both need to talk to someone, please get help for her.

I'm happy that she's alive

[canyon_deye.livejournal.com]

I am so incredibly sorry. :((( *hugs*

It's good to hear she's still alive -- there are things that can help her. I hope everything will be okay eventually. *hugs again*

[oth-leyton-love.livejournal.com]

i'm so incredibly sorry about this hun -hugs-

i hope that everything will be okay eventually -hug-

[myrskya.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear this, hun. My thoughts go out to both of you.

And try to remember that her doing this has absolutely nothing to do with you. I know this may not be the right thing to say, but I am sure she wasn't thinking about anything other than to get rid of the pain she must be feeling when she tried doing that, it wasn't meant to hurt anyone.

[websofseaweed.livejournal.com]

sweetie, i am so incredibly sorry. you are in such a hard situation and it must take an incredible amount of strength just to get up in the morning. i'm here if you want to talk, ever.

[13chapters.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. I wish I had some helpful words of advice, but I'm not good at this. I hope your mom gets the help she needs. Take care of yourself.

[twivamp92.livejournal.com]

Wow. I can't even begin to think of what you're going through. But she survived it for a reason. Just remember she loves you and she needs you to get through this.
And also remember that we're here for you.
*hugs*

[egotists.livejournal.com]

Best of luck to her recovery hon

[jennybliss.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight* Your mom loves you, but this is not about you this is about her. How she feels about herself and how she feels about your are not the same thing. She needs help. I can't even imagine what you are going through right now. I am here for you when ever you need. *hugs*

[radiophile]

*hugs* I'm so sorry. I know it's not easy to understand why someone would want to end their life when there doesn't seem to be any reason for it, but you can't blame yourself or think it's because she doesn't love you. Your mom needs to get help, and I really hope the doctors at the hospital can help you both find the support you need.

[zed-pm.livejournal.com]

Oh, bb. I'm so sorry. *hugs*

[cherie-morte.livejournal.com]

:( I don't think I could live through this. You're obviously an incredibly strong person. Stay that way, your mother needs you. She'll realize her mistake when she sees you're there for her. I am so sorry you have to go through something like that.

[nolechica.livejournal.com]

*hugs* i hope she gets the help she needs.

[pyrokitten77.livejournal.com]

That's horrible, bb. *hugs* I can't imagine what you're going through right now, but I'm here if you want to talk about it. *squeezes*

[alycewilson.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry to hear about this.